Perhaps In another Lifetime

So basically the thought crossed my mind that what would I do if I got another life and the following is a brief list in no particular order of what i think I may do in another life:

1. Cinematographer
2. Porn Director, Producer
3. Photographer
4. Own a business on the beach
5. Chef

Song Of the Day: J Dilla-Won't Do

A Quarter Past Wonderful

A little shift in focus today. Organizational Behavior or better yet leadership. It seems that we have a slight mutiny on our hands. A lot of discontent in the office as to what is happening with everyone's attitude about their jobs and how we feel in particular to our esteemed leader.

The main issues are micromanagement, work life 'fit', and divisiveness that is now apparent as a result of lack of communication and disinformation, as oddly enough it seems to be perpetuated from the top of the organization. As all this becomes clear to everyone in the boss' absence (due to communication resulting in Camaraderie in the new realization we all have similar sentiments towards our jobs); I realize how vital it is to be an efficient leader who has faith and belief in the abilities that one surrounds themselves with. "Hold everyone as capable." There are some very valuable things to learn from this. A wise friend recently told me that micromanagement is often due to incompetence or a lack of confidence in oneself and those around you. I hope that if i do exhibit any of these traits I at least have the self awareness to realize this.

All this leads to a small but important point, albeit a cliche. Life is short. Do what makes you happy. There really is no point in wasting time with the status-quo waiting for the world to change instead take the more difficult direct route and think things through put action behind reasonable logic and exact the change on the world. Being in a position of uncertainty, a feeling or fear, and even uncomfortablness is not necessarily a bad thing. Instead use it as a platform for growth and direct all your energy towards positive endevours.

Song of the Day: Oren Lavie-Her Morning Elegance

I'm thinking with a real clear mind, i can see the magazine headline, its just a matter of time, the boutique hotel king, has a nice kinda ring.

I know that if i can stay healthy i can get wealthy, I'm in a retired mind state, that right already there, riches in the bank my family don't ever worry bout a driver with a full gas tank.

I can have em' all but all i need is one and when I find her sow it up cause its all done!

And even beyond these shores i know that world is mine while i make it seem like yours. this is not a conceded scripture just simply a moderate picture of what i already know is in the palm of my hand join me for the journey and on our own two feet will stand.

A thought from the shower about my rise to power.

Song of the Day: Telepopmusic - Just Breathe

Day 4

So the picture generally sums up whats up in my life. I seem to be having a great amount of success in the female department and really all its doing is making me pretty pissed off. I mean the amount of time it takes and then to tell them to fuck off means being an asshole. Anyways I have decided 3 months separated from the pussy should do me some good and give me time and space to breathe a little.

Now that that's off my chest let's get down to some other business. I really feel like right now I am at a point of growth and I am not really sure about how to handle it or in which direction the growth is. Personal, work, family, some or all of the above. I am really comfortable with my current situation which is pissing me off because that means I am not taking risks or putting myself out there. Perhaps the one woman who I actually value right now said something quite intuitive and made me think, "Only when your really happy with yourself and your life can you commit to a relationship and make that a good situation to be in." I think that actually applies to basically every area that I identified above. So the big question become what to do next, yet another problem presented by having a choice. Options are a bitch cause they generally lead to paralysis which is why when face with a do or die situation it forces a decision and a course of action. Basically, there needs to be a commitment to a course of action, and currently that course of action is celibacy which in itself is not a solution to much but hopefully will result in a clear mind, and that at least is a start.

Poppin' The Cherry: "It's about Time!"

It's actually quite weird when I actually sit down to write this all the deep thoughts and important information I think is really relevant kinda disappears. In any case this is certainly a time of serious transition in my life so I am sure that the deep meaningful thoughts will flow through at some point. In the mean time I can certainly say that there are a few things in life that are going to take priority over what normally is important in my life.

The theme basically comes down to time. Time there is only so little of it to go around so I better spend it doing things that I love, make me happy, are fun, or preferably all of the above. With that said i think of the debauchery that was my trip to Columbia as the crescendo of madness and excess. It still continues but the reality of everyday life waters it down.

The main things I need to focus on with the theme of time in mind is the following. Write more, read more, take my health seriously, and really focus more on the people that I value. And shit I want to learn how to speak Spanish and take amazing pictures.

With that said I think its time to bring my first blog post to a close.

Song of the Day: Myon & Shane 54- Not A lot left